Before I wake I want to feel breezes dust my face and kisses so light they fail to touch my skin and I want to roll to my left and curl up in you. And when I close my eyes I see bursts of blue and gold and crimson red and I will shudder at the chill.
Before I dine I want to slow cook and rise high and marinate for a long while so you’ll see my heart poured into what is spread before you. A feast that I created for the first look when you take a bite and nod. Yes, my love. Fit for a king.
Before I hit midlife I want to cry so hard for a suffocating loss that takes my breath and stomps it into concrete. Because when redemption gallops through darkness I will admire it more like a stallion racing and sing my thanks like butterflies wings flapping, fast and quick my heart will dance as his muscles pound on racetrack sod.
Before my heart is hardened you appear like the twinkling of dawn and you take my breaths and blow them back inside of me. And as I run you run and as I dance you dance and I scream for you to leave me be because I do not deserve such pretty talk and such beauty. But as you drive away in a cloud of dust you turn the truck back around and come back to the place where you started.
Before I sleep I want to see you resting on your left arm because I’m reading and you can’t stand it when I’m reading so you tickle and fuss and we roll together tangled in heat for your fierce jealousy of the words that capture my heart.
Before I grow too damn old I want to rest upon your strong arms and you will remind me of our summers and our winters and our glory days. I will smile and shuffle on at the memory and the taste of you when you’re long past gone.
Before I die I want to have strength to offer praises, for as it turns out, this ain’t no middle-ground life. I thank God for what was good in my future that I was too blind to see. For redemption that was inches from my face and yet my inveterate stubbornness prevailed. And with wrinkled skin and a burned heart I turn to God and cry out in gratitude for the blessings so freely given.
Before I complain, instill in me gratefulness. Before I judge, let me show mercy. Before the dawn, grow my boldness.
Before I give up completely, allow me to persevere, for the future is coming right around the bend.